Ms. M
"Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future."
~ Oscar Wilde
Small town stigma tends to stop you in your tracks when you're on a journey to appreciate all of the things you love about yourself and life in general. You want to "fit in", be part of the "it" crowd, but your quirkiness & eccentricities keep you just on the outside walls of that territory. Then the thoughts of "I'm just not enough for the people who are enough to the world" and "What can I do to be just like them?" You try so hard. You start to change the very things about yourself that make you, you. Physically, mentally, socially you transform into what "society" says is good enough yet you still don't fit in. And why is that? You lost your authenticity, your genuine nature has been molded by a world who values plastic surgeons and reality tv more than our educators and artists. "I'm only 29! I'm not supposed to have wrinkles and stretch marks!" I mean come on! I had 3 miracle babies before I was 23 years old! That body created these little humans and I should see myself as a badass opposed to not good enough. "Who will appreciate what I offer if I don't look the part?" "Honey, if you don't appreciate yourself or your journey, no one else will either!" That little voice kept ringing in my head, but my heart wasn't ready to believe it. Years of believing I was only a mom and wife led to years of giving up and allowing to just co-exist in a world where materialism is a priority. Not only did I become unimportant to the world, I became unimportant to myself. Young momma with three babies, a husband who refused to understand the concept of responsibility, a full time career, and a home to manage. I lost myself. All the things I once loved were just dead to me and that was my wake up call. I made a choice to stop the madness and unload all of the negative baggage (and a ton of weight) that held me back from being my authentic self. Someone walked into my life unexpectedly and loved me for me because I loved myself just as much.
I have never really been a modest person, but I have never felt so comfortable outside of my own intimate space being completely bare, skin and soul. Christian's artistic passion shows in her skills as she's creating a gorgeous canvas through her calling as a make up artist. The true artistry is so empowering Amy that it vibrates throughout the whole session! It's like a spiritual awakening of the confident soul happens on the other side of that lens. A vixen is released. In November 2015, that happened... for the first time. I was hooked. Fast forward 2.5 years and I couldn't have chosen a better way to celebrate the beginning of a new chapter with the man I will call my husband soon as I end the last chapter of my 20's.
If you are having any reservations, take a deep breath and realize that you are all woman. Powerful and confident. A miracle worker and maker. You owe it to yourself to not only physically see that, but internally feel that confidence that has been deep inside you all along. With Amy's guidance and Christian's mad make up skills, you have nothing to worry about. "Will I look fat?" "I'm not made for boudoir." YES YOU ARE! Amy is a master of her trade and no matter what you feel like going into the session, you feel like a model walking out! After three children, a significant weight-loss, divorce, and with many physical "flaws", today I couldn't feel more confident and free! So much love to Amy and Christian for the opportunity to be a part of such tremendous artwork that I will cherish forever.
"Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future."
~ Oscar Wilde
