I've always struggled with my body. When I was a young girl, I was overweight from age 9 or 10 and remember feeling "different" than the smaller girls. I had an emotional connection to food and used it as my comfort. As I grew older it got worse, until finally I'd had enough and I made healthy life changes and lost 90 pounds at age 22. I felt amazing and sexy, more confident than I ever had as a teenager and young woman. Then real life began, I met a man, fell in love, got pregnant and here I am today back to an overweight body. I felt depressed and sad, ugly and unworthy. Why had my body and mind betrayed me again? By this time I had started shooting boudoir photography, as a photographer I love empowering other people, showing them how beautiful they are in photos. I began to realize my thoughts about my own body, could affect my clients and and self deprecating had to stop. I started really looking at myself in the mirror, listening to my finance's words about how sexy he found me, hearing my son say "you are pretty mama" and I decided I needed to love myself.